Wednesday, July 30, 2008

One Run at a Time...

Last night I did my first hill run. I used mapmyrun.com to map a solid run with a few hills, separated by flat stretches. I set out for my run with the intent of meeting Paul at the gym, working out, and riding back with him. Starting out everything went great, even my first hill was not so bad. Then I hit a stretch of flat ground with absolutely no shade for about a mile! As the hot summer sun beat down on my neck I was incredibly tempted to text Paul and give in… I even started walking instead of running. As I walked with my thoughts I realized walking and quitting are not options! I told myself just start running! I pushed through and ran the rest of the way, even after I realized I had passed the gym and had to backtrack a street! When I finally walked in to the crisp cold gym I felt wonderful, and instead of thinking of my next run I just allowed myself to be in that moment, proud of that one specific run. So that is how I will do it now, one run at a time, one step at a time. It really is true that endurance running is about your mentality more than anything else.

I woke up a bit stiff today, and I was lucky enough to go for a massage using a gift certificate from my good friend Clara! It was a full body relaxation massage, and I could literally feel the tension and doubts being released from my body as the girl worked. I glimpsed myself in the mirror as I redressed and realized I have developed a newfound sense of self. In the past my body has always let me down. I have always felt like my body is a traitor, and that my mind is trapped in this diseased vessel. With running I have developed more respect for what I am capable of, and have found a way to transcend those boundaries I had always assumed were impenetrable. I started this journey with the intent of raising funds for NF2 and running the Long Beach half-marathon, now I realize this is only the beginning…

6 comments:

Kadi said...

Oh hell no, Olivia. Your body is not a diseased vessel at all. It is a tool, a gift. Your body, your life, your story is a gift to us all. A reminder that our imperfections and disabilities should not impede, but be the fuel that propels us to overcome life's obstacles and create hope in others. You are that. You are a gift of inspiration.
Thank you for being that for me and so many others. I will have to give you one serious wedgie if you get down on yourself!!

Jodi said...

I was blog hopping and found your blog. I am so glad! What an inspiration you are! I also have a running blog and I love to find other runners to help inspire me along! Stop by sometime...

http://www.jodibeacon2.blogspot.com

It's called Jogging Beat Blogging

RILEY said...

Way to go Olivia! You are a true inspiration to us all! You are so close to achieving your goal!

Cindy said...

having nf2 and lost ability to run by age 14 I know too well the mind trapping game thinking you are a diseased vessel. Actually take that back , Ive never felt diseased but more like imploded by bombs stopping my abilities. diseased is ill health due to bad habits or some infectious bacteria. Keep running and I'll keep walking -- if it will EVER stop raining!! use it or lose it, avoid the bombs. :)

Anonymous said...

Olivia, I love this blog. You are so impressive girl. You're doing some great things with your life.

Relissa

Sheila said...

LOL!! DITTO what Kadi said!!

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